I know that I always find it hard to bare emotional stuffs. One day, I saw how brutal and selfish men is for their own safety. Sad to say that the I am totally trampled down for this.
I could not bare the disappointment and the pressure put on me as the consequence of this act. I no longer attend my next class and rushed to my boarding house where i burst out in anger and sad feelings. How could they do this to me? What have I done enough for them to throw me away like a garbage? They know what kind of person I am and it would be better for them to be on my place rather because they are fancy to fit in?
I told God, "Why did you allow this?" but it was wrong of course.
I was totally bothered that day and I went far from these dumb people. I went to a coffee shop and spent almost four hours there. well, there foods are all expensive but the place was good anyway. I did think and think of my situation and realized to look rather on the positive side of it so that I 'll be able to overcome it and make my life go on.
There was nobody for me.
When my kuya knew it of course he came to see me. I learned a lot from his words. He said that you are not related to them by blood and you cried because of them? It was like an opening to me. it's the fact but I just can't bare how it felt like. Though h e was just three years older than me, i saw how mature he was on the way he lived he life and see his problems.
The lesson I learned is to never put your heart to your friends, always find new friends and always be strong, do not cry.
